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i get another day off tomorrow, and i am SOOO all about that. :)

too bad the last two days have been spent staggering around completely exhaused because i can't sleep later than 8:30 due to the crappy soundproofing to the suite upstairs. So- yay- i work or play until late and fall asleep by 3am and then bam- wide awake (and muttering a few choice words) 5 hours later. GROWL. 0.o same thing happened when i lay down exhausted this afternoon to try to take a nap- CRASH/ BAM. THUNDEROUS FOOTSTEPS. argh. i just gave up. i will buy earplugs tomorrow.

but! :D yesterday the sun was shining! the WHOLE DAY!!! hard to believe i know. and today it was nice for... 5 hours. and then it got all crappy again. :( but then there is always alcohol to turn to i suppose for consolation. :P it being canada day and all-- the clouds mean zero visability for fireworks and national celebrations which really bites.

oooh, yesterday i went to this tiny consignment store on west 4th avenue and---!!! found the most amazing things! haha i spent 2 hours in there, trying heaps of stuff on and rummaging, and rifling. :D it was GRANDE. :D they had amazing things! i bought 2 pairs of high heels, a small evening shoulder bag, two skirts, a delicate white dress tunic, and a shirt. all for $100! the shoes were $13 and $20. so satisfying. :D i will have to post some photos tomorrow. :)



managed to find a pair of jeans at the mall that *gasp* actually fit like they were made for me, and make my rear look pretty seecksay if i do say so myself. it's rare that i can turn around and look admiringly at my own butt, but in these?? (*oogle*) LMAO. i'd better buy a second pair- never know how long it will be until i can find another sweet pair.

went for brunch with my roommate and her friends on sat morning. that was nice- i splurged and got a soy latte as well. (ah, the good things in life) :) and last night i went over to a friend's place and met her bf and their friends who were visiting from the states. they were ridiculously well educated about fine wines and coffees and stuff (*snort* good thing i brought over a cheap bottle of white- oops!) and haha, at one point of the evening i had 4 different small glasses of alcohol in front of me. they had recently arrived here from living in south africa, and they had brandy creme (YUM!), s. african brandy (holy hell it burns! it burns!), red wine, and a martini that Hope had made out of vodka and the chocolate flavored mint plant on the windowsill. i really want a chocolate mint plant of my own! i tried just a leaf and it's so delicious! it really does taste like chocolate. and mint. :P and i was so classy that i borrowed a roll of toilet paper from her to take home because it's my turn to buy toilet paper and i forgot. hehe, just stuffed that baby in my shoulder bag and i was set. :P

holy hannah. so tired. *groan*

i've decided that i *do* want a boyfriend. quite a bit. :) which is good, because for the last forever period of time (i'm not even telling you how long- it's been that long) i haven't really wanted one, which clearly leads to the outcome of not meeting a single damn person i would even consider kissing. and the ones i do meet and feel a chemistry with- they are married. :/ or taken. la.

that brings me to this graphic designer at work. he is one of the most charismatic people you will ever meet and in fact he very much reminds me and others of micheal buble. not in looks necessarily but more in character. he has a fabulous sense of style (and a GORGEOUS cologne- mmmm it's unspeakably sexy to catch as he walks by), and his wit is drier than anything - the things that fly out his mouth are hysterically unexpected (sometimes dark)and deadpan, with an underlying level of charm, vulnerability and sweetness. i met his wife the other day (she is gorgeous in a very real way) and the two of them together seem nearly like a hollywood couple- but one with integrity and real charm. :) they are expecting their first baby in december, and i'm so happy for the two of them.

anyways, yeah- so he is clearly taken, but then...

lean closer, boys and girls, it's:
---honest journal confession time----
why do i feel a sense of electricity when he stands close to me, or brushes my arm at my desk or when a bunch of us are out for drinks after work? yoikes. i'm not joking- when a group of us went for drinks a few months ago, he sat beside me at the table and brushed my arm with his many times, and also left his arm lightly resting against mine for an extended period of time... and i could feel a chemestry there. (please note i didn't realize he was married at this time- most especially because of these small flirty (?) touches).

anyways, now that i know he is married, i am very careful to not be more than professional around him- it would just be wrong. but he came over to my desk on friday to talk about a work project, and he ended up showing me an item on the internet and so he was leaning against my desk quite close to me and i swear- when he brushed my hand to take the computer mouse, i felt an electricity to the point that i felt my cheeks blush a bit, and i had to subtly catch my breath and pretend that my mind was completely focused on the item we were researching. meanwhile, my insides were feeling lightheaded like in "Amelie" when she rides in the haunted house and her crush stands behind her dressed as a frightening ghost and breathes "whooooooo" "ooooooh" in her ear.

that's just great.
:/ yoikes. more like "horrible". but whatever. these were totally secret thoughts, and it's not like he can tell i've experienced this (there's no way) and, **most importantly** nothing would ever happen between the two of us. it's laughable to even think something would. pffft. not even plausible, not even part of the equation. so in that case, i think i will just enjoy the feeling for what it is, (just something inexplicable and interesting) and just wait for it to pass. because it will soon enough- that's the way these crushes go. :)

mmkay, getting really tired now, so i will wrap this up and make my bed up with freshly washed sheets and climb in with gently sun-kissed and warmed skin. took the dog for a walk to the beach today and even though it was overcast, i still got a nice bit of sun. that dog thinks he owns the neighborhood, he is such a funny thing. (who needs to learn to "heel!") hehe. ^_^


random:
mmmmm: listening to chess on broadway
mmmmmmmmm mmmmmm: "all i ask of you" josh groban and sarah brightman put tears in my eyes while watching that today. it doesn't get more gorgeous than that, and i usually run screaming to hear sarah brightman's voice, so that's saying a lot. so beautiful. :)

night, lovelies~
heath.